Juggling life through a bi-polar lens. Sometimes up, sometimes down. Mostly trying to tread water in the middle. Creating a likeness to a normal life. Whatever "normal" is...
Showing posts with label when nobody helps it makes it hurt more. Show all posts
Showing posts with label when nobody helps it makes it hurt more. Show all posts

Saturday, 4 April 2009

A Christening card, worries for Fluffy.......and off to Lincoln we go!



My second stitched card.......



I didn't expect it to be half as difficult as it was; it took a whole evening!
I made it for one of the girls next door to us. She is 12, and had been asking to be baptised, and so she was, last Sunday.

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Falling over in public...!!

I'm still battling the labrynthitis! It's getting better. Sort of. I have fewer dizzy spells but they are longer and 'stronger' when they come.

On Friday I actually fell over in town when one took me completely by surprise. I was VERY low afterwards, in tears, because no one came to help or to see if I was ok. It was market day in Colchester, so very busy. There were people standing by and others walking along. I was tutted at because I was obviously in someone's way, down there on the pavement, slumped next to the bin that I'd just hit my head on. But not one person asked if I was ok. Even if it was because they thought I was drunk or something, surely they could have asked from a 'safe distance'???? It hurts because I know that I would help, and have done in the past.

This sort of incident makes me feel like 98% of people in the world are ignorant bastards. It makes me feel like it isn't a world I want to be in. I had shaken it off by this morning, luckily. There have been times when the downer would have lingered much longer.

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Off to Lincoln, and meeting a blogger...

We're off to Lincoln tomorrow. My partner has bought a franchise and we're off to the company's head office Monday to Wednesday. Because it is 3 1/2 hours' drive away, we're staying Sunday and Wednesday night, too.

I've been to Lincoln a few times before, as my dad lived in a nearby village, Metheringham, for a while. I shall enjoy walking round the cathedral again- apparently our hotel is very near to it, so I hope the weather stays mild so that we can have a few evening walks there.

There is a shop there called Omnipuss Art- the clue as to why I want to go there is in the name! It's also a stockist of artwork by Lea Goldberg- click on the link and have a look at her gallery!
And of course, I have already searched online to see where Lincoln's craft shops are :)

The big highlight of the trip for me, though, will be stopping off in Grantham on the way, to meet Julie!!!! It isn't very often you get to meet a blogger friend in 3D!! I am excited, happy and a bag of nerves, all in equal quantities!

We're taking the laptop but I'm not sure if I'll be able to blog. Maybe! I'm going to take my pencils and watercolours with me and see if I can do a picture or two in the evenings.


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Fluffy at the vets again :(

On Tuesday, please think good thoughts for Fluffy, as she will be going under a general anaesthetic again. This time she'll be having X-Rays to see if she has any tumours.... her calcium levels are high, and sometimes a tumour is the cause. I had a horrible dream recently in which the X-Ray revealed not one tumour, but lots of little ones, which were inoperable. I woke up heartbroken and the feeling lingered for ages....


Fluffy on Saturday, in her new birthday bed! Can you tell which end is where????

Whilst sedated she is going to have her fur de-matted, which will involve some shaving too. In all her 16 years her fur has been beautiful, silky soft and knot free. Over the last month it has gone matted and dry. We've no idea why....

At the same time, she has become suddenly even more friendly than usual and seeks out laps and cuddles. This will make it even harder for us if the news is bad on Tuesday.

Please keep things crossed for her...

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Have a good week, and see you when we get back!!