Juggling life through a bi-polar lens. Sometimes up, sometimes down. Mostly trying to tread water in the middle. Creating a likeness to a normal life. Whatever "normal" is...

Sunday 25 September 2016


Well I was making a new blog, but now can't log into it!! Luckily I hadn't yet made it go live.
I'll try making one again sometime, I hope. 

Nowadays I check in on family and friends on Facebook. It's easier, but there is no way to make an index- no 'tags' like on a blog, and no easy way to get back to earlier posts. 
So although it's a good form of communication, it isn't the best way to share, so I don't really like it that much......

When I have time- IF- I have time, I hope to start again hereabouts. I've taken up a few new things this year, like pottery. It would be nice to journal about that.

Please be in contact if you're on Facebook xx

Meanwhile, here's my potting :)

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Love, tea & cake, Helena

Monday 9 June 2014


 Spring was early this year! There is a little patch of woodland about a 10 minute drive from here. There is a part of it away from the 'official visitor paths' which we always try to visit because of the bluebells. Here is a short video I took of them. I love the birdsong on this!

The bluebells went back a long way...
 -no special effects tweaking here, the sun did it for me!

And Kevin caught me-

The bluebells always have such a gorgeous scent!

ps- is this font too small? 

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Love, tea & cake,  

Tuesday 3 June 2014

Since then.....

We took our honeymoon in Jersey. For non-UK-ers, I mean one of The Channel Islands, between here and France, not the New Jersey that gets slagged off on US crime dramas :)

We stayed at a hotel called Longville Manor. Click the link and have a peek! It was glorious.


I don't have any photo's of the honeymoon to share, as we were burgled a month after we returned home. We lost everything of value, whether monetary or sentimental. All my jewellery was taken. None of it was costly, but to me, every piece told a story. 

Our camera and laptops were taken, and these had our honeymoon photo's on. It also means, of course, that I lost about 4 years of other photo's. It all only hit me when I realised that I had lost all those pictures of Scooter, and the last video I took of him- just a week before he passed over. In that video he was belly up on cushions on his bench, sunbathing. He was purring as I rubbed his tummy. You would never have believed he be gone a week later- he only started to go down hill 2 days later... I had never published the video anywhere like here, or YouTube, as I had always been too upset to process it on my computer. I had only just thought about it, and thought yes, I'll do that, I can handle that now.

I had saved everything to Amazon Cloud- but when I next got online, I discovered that my files there had disappeared. If you save things to a cloud, please remember to check it regularly!!

A few more pic's to cheer us up :)

I forgot to show this picture of our Ring Bearers, as carried up the aisle by Hazel, our Ring Bearers' Bearer. Bob has my ring on his arm, and Dilly has Kevin's on her snout.
  Doesn't she look every bit the princess! She said it was HER day, of course, and particularly enjoyed having a bigger tiara than me or Hazel.

 Here's Hazel, the Ring Bearers' Bearer. Hazel is my God-daughter.

 This is Jo, Hazel's mum. Jo and I have known each other since we were 8 :)

This book was one of our readings. 
I can't imagine who influenced us in this choice ;)

The children in Kevin's class drew pictures for us to display:

 Lots of people took a photo of this particular work of art. Maybe it's because Kevin bears a remarkable resemblance to Bradley Wiggins...

 Hope it all makes you smile :)

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 Love, tea & cake,  

Monday 2 June 2014

Luvbug and me..... something great has happened.

Over a year since I was last here. A lot has happened... Here is the biggest thing:

A cat appeared, and let me pick her up. She went to sleep on the cuff of my sleeve. She nestled down and snoozed... so she got into a lot of the photo's! I late found out that she lived at the venue and her name is Marmaduke. In this picture, guests are blowing bubbles over us, as confetti wasn't allowed.


25th October 2013
Layer Marney Tower, nr. Colchester
Bob and Dilly were our ring-bearers

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Love, tea & cake,  

Wednesday 29 May 2013

ATCs for May 2013

Thank you, Diane, for the tip! I changed to the Google Chrome browser et voila! Pictures! :)

So here are the ATCs I swapped with Miss Peach's mum this month...

This is "Through The Keyhole"
who's looking through the keyhole at you?
This is the inside!
It was a cat! (of course!)

Next this one is "Buttoned Up".
In the foreground in the internet image of a boot.
In the background is how I changed it.
Here's a close-up.
The make the buttons 3D I applied a
Sakura clear glaze pen over and over to build it up.
Lots of stamps and glitter :)

This one is "Blowing In The Wind":

This next one was an open themed one, 
we just had to use glossy card.
So I used a Beatrix Potter decoupage :)

This next one had to refer to Walter de la Mare.
It's a triple fold.
Here's the front:

Opened out,
a poem
(featuring a cat!)

The other side:

Lastly, the theme "April" was set.
This one is called "April Showers".
Underneath the vellum:
UK peeps might recognise the picture as
being from the packaging of
"Yorkshire Tea" :)

Hope you enjoyed looking at them. I've been enjoying the challenge of having a theme and then having to think something up for it!

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Love, tea & cake,

Blogger problems

Currently, Blogger won't upload any photo's on this blog, or my others. I've no idea why. I've tried everything suggested in their 'help' section. 

I've posted my latest journal pages and ATCs on my Facebook page, so if you're on facebook, please have a look; 'friend' me if you haven't already :)

Blogger has been doing this for weeks.

If any of you have any advice, please let me know!!!


Wednesday 24 April 2013


I took some photo's of some of the stuff I've been doodling and scribbling in my 'journal'. It IS making me feel a little better, or well, not *better*, as such, maybe a little more in control. I feel something welling up, I reach for the pen and crayons. -Rather than it going around in my head and building up. Hard to explain. But getting it out on paper is a nice thing, even when what's written isn't nice.

Well here's some of it...

(-the ACEO is by Marita Stevenson, Germany, via Ebay)

(-rainbow cat image from internet)

 Bird inspired by "Art Journal Freedom" by Dina Wakley

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Love, tea & cake,