Juggling life through a bi-polar lens. Sometimes up, sometimes down. Mostly trying to tread water in the middle. Creating a likeness to a normal life. Whatever "normal" is...

Monday, 14 December 2009

I'm home!

Goodness! Last night was the first time I've slept in my own bed since 1st November! It felt very odd!

Today I am forgetting how to use the phone and the tv remote control, as they are different from the ones at mum's house :) d'oh!

Mum is ok..... I hope she stays ok.... we are ringing each other a few times a day and I got a spare key cut for her neighbour- and left mum with strict instructions DO NOT LEAVE THE KEY IN THE LOCK!!!! -this was why we had to get the police to force entry when she was ill the first time.

Luvbug and I will be heading back to mum's at the end of this week. Maybe Thursday, maybe the weekend. Not sure yet. See how she does. It's the first time she's been alone since all this started.

Please keep everything crossed for her.

Last night I was in tears and Luvbug just held me tight while I blubbed. It all had to come out some time I suppose. All that stress and worry, all backed up for weeks ;)

I feel a little disorientated today. Now what was it I used to do with my day?.....

So far I have napped by the fire with a cup of tea, watched some tv that recorded in my absence, eaten porridge (smothered in cinnamon yum!) and done some laundry. Oh! And opened 11 doors on our Advent calendar. -Luvbug forgot about it after 3 days! LOL!

Now I'm off to call mum..... see how SHE'S doing on her own! I wonder if she feels as lost as me!

7 comments:

Chrissy said...

Welcome home :D It will probably take a little while for you to settle down, it is quite a long time. Hopefully Mum will also get back in the swing of things

Angel and Kirby said...

I know how glad you are to be home. We hope your Mom continues to do well. It is understandable to be a little disoriented after all the absence and stress.

Lynda (Granny K) said...

Hope all goes well for your Mum and that you get some rest and relaxation yourself. Time to recharge the batteries. Sending love and hugs. Lynda

Ginger Jasper said...

I hope that all goes well for your mum and that you will be able to settle into a routine back home.. You are bound to be weepy its understandable with all you have gone through. Take care and we are thinking about you.. Hugs Carol and GJ x

Julie said...

You'll need some time to unwind a little and it will do you good to have a little time to yourself after everything you've been coping with. I hope your Mum has a good week. Look after yourself xx

MISS PEACH ~(^.^)~ said...

Dearest Helena! Wishing you the blessings of the season from the cozy cottage to your little beautiful haven. Thank you for all the beautiful glimpses I have had through the windows of your world this year...I pop by often and today I wanted you to know that! Misses Peach reminds you that "Happiness is quality not quantity" so treasure those tiny moments...if we were there with you we would hold you so tight and let you cry and cry and cry. It does a soul so good to do that. You are always in our thoughts in all your trials that life throws your way this year. Know how much we care. Love Karla & Peachy

freebird said...

I end up forgetting things after a visit too. I reach for the dishtowel and realize it's in a different spot. I open a cupboard and realize I don't put my things in the same spot. I have to relearn and it seems so silly!