Juggling life through a bi-polar lens. Sometimes up, sometimes down. Mostly trying to tread water in the middle. Creating a likeness to a normal life. Whatever "normal" is...

Wednesday, 14 July 2010

I'm sorry if what I wrote offends anyone, by the way. I don't mean to hurt or mock people who still believe what I can't- I just need a space where I can shout and be angry and honest about where I am.......

7 comments:

Stardust said...

Helena... come here, (((HUGS))). Nobody is going to hate you or honesty, I've never liked dishonest or phony people. You're human, we all are. Nobody should be despised for his frailness, I just hope you'll find strength/relief in wherever possible.

We're always here for you. Hugs again...

Feronia said...

Stardust is absolutely right, Helena. No-one is going to hate you for honesty or frailness. And we are always here for you. Hugs x

freebird said...

And if they hate you for being human then they ought to go back to reading what Jesus was really like. He understood those who couldn't trust in God. So don't worry, most people will understand your anger and despair. No judgement coming from me, I have my own doubts to deal with.

Angel and Kirby said...

WE understand completely. I hope my comments did not come off wrong. You sound off all you want or need to. You are in a tough situation and need all the support you can get.

Chrissy said...

Helena, I think it is what you feel that matters...and what works for you.
Anyone that has experienced someone close to them hurting should understand the anger and anguish. When my younger brother was given a few weeks to live, I bottled most of mine up, I don't recommend it ;)
My own beliefs are based around my personal experience and I don't expect anyone to share them, heck I am not sure I could articulate them! Big Hugs to you

MISS PEACH ~(^.^)~ said...

Beloved Helena! Soft hugs from Misses Peach and myself. Our shoulders are strong and you may cry all you like and scream as you wish. We will hold you...
It is sad and unfair what you and your mother are facing. To watch her slow down and become frail is heartbreaking. You must be strong and face life one day at a time...there is no other way. You must treasure each tiny moment the two of you can share together...they will be the ones you remember later deep in your heart. Hold her close and let her be a forgetful child...tell her all will be well...as she did for you when you were small.
I know of what I speak...I have walked in your shoes ten years ago when my mother was only 65.
I am always here for you dearest friend...please lean on me...we will hold you. Judgement is never ours to pass...
Love Karla

CherryPie said...

I am so sorry to hear about your Mum. Nobody should feel offended by our comments, it is how you feel and how you can deal with the situation.

It is awful to see a loved one suffer and in such circumstances you have to deal with it the best way you can and the way that works for you.

Sending you some *hugs* xxx